Being yourself is one of the hardest things because it’s scary. You always wonder whether you’ll be accepted for who you really are. I decided to call my record ‘Inside Out’ because that’s my motto about life. I don’t think you ever succeed at trying to be anyone else but who you truly are.
Bring me her…. And a bucket full of puppies
So maybe it’s true…
….I’m finding myself more and more self-centered lately, and i’m really starting to feel okay with it. Is it bad? Or is that a good place? A year being single does weird things to someone…..Everyone looks at me and then feels a need to try and set me up with SOMEONE but i’m just uninterested. Not that I’m saying if a couple certain people came back around (or back in the country) I wouldn’t not entertain the idea, but alas, no one i meet lately compares. Lately I’m craving more experience, more travels…… Atlanta for the weekend, New York City next month, a music festival in gulf shores, camping at frozen head, Hawaii to visit family, and then from there my European/Spain travels….
I feel extremely lucky. but at the same time, so strange and sad…. I feel like I will forever be a lone traveler. I don’t know if that’s what I want but anytime I feel like getting close to someone now, I think whats the point? Everything is temporary. Even love. I know that’s cynical and jaded but really, it is. I know I should trust and enjoy that ride again, but losing my balance again scares the living shit out of me. It’s the only fear I have, feeling so out of control of my life again that I wake up a year later not realizing where I am or who I am. When does that feeling finally fade?
Finishing the bottom half of my sleeve on March 18th plays a significant role for me. Who knew what a years time can do for someone. No apologies and no regrets. Ever. Now to finally work on my next tattoo project
"As a single footstep will not make a path on the earth, so a single thought will not make a pathway in the mind. To make a deep physical path, we walk again and again. To make a deep mental path, we must think over and over the kind of thoughts we wish to dominate our lives."